22:12 PM - 16/12/24

 



There is just so many things about this place. 

So many rules. So many activities. So many roles. And everyone will get their turn eventually. 

I'm just... Overwhelmed. By this place.

I remember Sanjay said that it will be tough in LPK, even numerous people had been drop out of this. And I said to him that I can. Oh how I underestimate this. 

I do want to write things about this Institute, but it was so many that I forgot about the first few. 

We really need to be serious, diligent, and just learning, learning, and learning. 


Even these senpai said that the smartest person in his generation (8 months?) get a job in Japan took 7 months! But here I thought 6 months will be the usual!? But they praise the 7 months?? Then what was the averages? At least more than that. 


I think I'll be a changing man when I get out of this place for good. 

And I do wanna be a changing man. I wanna change for the better. 

So I'll keep going. I wanna see how far I could go. I wanna see what would be my mistakes and the way I'll be growing here. I'll use this place for myself. 

Having said that, I don't know what to even do to wash my clothes... I don't bring a bucket and I even lost it when I buying things I missed (I thought I put it in the bag). And I don't even have the soap for it. And I need to use the washing machine, the thing that I do rarely! Sigh... 


So many shukudo (homework), so many things to remember, so many socially challenging stuff. 

Sometimes, I get left behind by the guys from my class. I guess I never talk to them. Except for 2 people. Ahmad, the guy who I helped before and now we becoming friends and quite close. And Maulana, the guy sitting next to me in class. 

I don't know if he will sit next to me again though next time. 

I do hope I'll get along well soon with my classmates. I can't believe I'd say that line in this age. 


My head feel a bit lightheaded. But after this I still need to do my shukudo. So here's me in the dark (they already turn off the lamp):


Ah my face is still visible. 

I do though feeling a bit good wearing such uniform. Quite cool. 

But I think if I want to be good ENOUGH, I need to stop doing anything unnecessary at least in the time of classes which Monday to Friday. 

But I really hope I will be okay and things will goes well. 

Ricko, out. 

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