2:29 AM - 07/11/24

 I go to Indosat outlet again, and finally got my phone number card so that I can use my apps and WhatsApp. And good thing they didn't change my card into postpaid type, because it'll sucks to buying a data package just for the card to works. Instead, they keep it prepaid and give me the postpaid card that has the data I bhought in order to get my card back. So got two cards now. I think I'm gonna sell this data card because I don't need it and I want some of my money back. 


I am feeling uneasy, I just feel unsure if I could do it. Like any of these. I just felt so worried about it all. I skipped my Anki because I felt tired or maybe that's what I justified to myself for being lazy. And that's make me guilty for myself and makes me thinking like "man, why am I doing this..", as that I'm asking why I decided not to doing it, and feeling like sucks and incompetent. I should be better than this. I hope that I can do my best and not doing things in lazy way. 


Today, after I sleep of course, I will go to the clinic to do the medical check up. It's quite far, so I hope I will be okay. 

I still sometime got a bit of headache again. Ah and I hope me being all nighter don't make my medical check up with a bad result.

I think I can't keep going to type any more thoughts about today and now. I felt tired and I don't want to press my brain anymore into thinking about things. So I'll leave this here.

Here's me


I don't know if I should show me being tired because I said so, or I just show myself smiling, or just my usual stone face, idk. So, I choose the a-bit-of-smile face. I don't think I look smiling, though. Whatever, I guess. 

I hope today's a good day. Iyan will come over again just like yesterday, and I hated it, I wanna be alone so that I can focus on my thoughts more. But well, idk, I can make do. I don't have the heart to say no. So once again, I hope today will be a good day. 

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