02.17 A.M. - 31/10/24

 My plan right now is to enroll to the Japanese language of LPK (Lembaga Pelatihan Kerja) and survive/getting along there for 4-6 months. After that, hopefully goes to Japan. And then working there. Ideally I want to change job later on, to become a translator of Japanese Novels. That's the real goal. 

I said all that, but I actually don't know. I really don't know what to do about my life. I don't think I am depress right now. I don't think this is also a existential crisis, because you make who you wanna be. I just, really, don't know what to do. And when I don't know what to do, all the answer I could found is just I want to having fun. But, I know I couldn't just do only that. I need to do something with my life and my future. So I decide to choose what I think is interested to me.  Which is Japan. That's why. Though I still think if is this really the right path. I know no one knows the right path before they try it. But still. I still have doubts and worry. I really hope everything will be going good. I hope I can do good. I hope I've changed. To the better. 


This is me while I typing all these. 


I'm using that Halabero milk for skin so that's why my skin looks smooth. Or maybe that's just my usual oily skin (yikes). 

I don't think I'll be diligent with this dairy thing, because I've always half-assed this kind of thing. But that's all for today. 

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