Diary or something

 I got a call from the LPK and I plan to doing the interview the very next day. Now I'm kinda freak out what should I do. This isn't an interview for a job, so there's no way I could fail, right?... Right?? And then I think, what should I wear? There's no way I ask that kind of question to the admin! Because it seems so obvious! Well, if they didn't say something about it, it means I just need to put up something polite and not so shabby.  Now about the talking. I already did interview a few time, but those are so longtime ago. Well, like 2.5years ago. But I feel afraid I'm gonna mess this up. I need to practice and research about what should I say. I do know what'd I say, but it'll not hurt to just research things to be more prepared. That way, I could also feel less scared and more relaxed.  Iyan come over to my house again and again and again. I know he had problem with his family and all, but cmon... It's just too often now. And all these actuall...

 My plan right now is to enroll to the Japanese language of LPK (Lembaga Pelatihan Kerja) and survive/getting along there for 4-6 months. After that, hopefully goes to Japan. And then working there. Ideally I want to change job later on, to become a translator of Japanese Novels. That's the real goal.  I said all that, but I actually don't know. I really don't know what to do about my life. I don't think I am depress right now. I don't think this is also a existential crisis, because you make who you wanna be. I just, really, don't know what to do. And when I don't know what to do, all the answer I could found is just I want to having fun. But, I know I couldn't just do only that. I need to do something with my life and my future. So I decide to choose what I think is interested to me.  Which is Japan. That's why. Though I still think if is this really the right path. I know no one knows the right path before they try it. But still. I still have doub...